I have a story to bring you that comes from the heart about using CBD for relief from anxiety and depression. I normally don’t relate such personal issues of my life to anyone, certainly never in a blog but if one person might derive benefit, it’s worth it to me. So here goes… A series of events that started with my father’s passing a few years back conspired to push me into a deep depression.
For the first time in my life, I felt completely alone. I lost my mother in 1991 and was raised as an only child until I was 18 and found out that my father had led a ‘dual life’ meaning he had another family besides my mother and I. I was told that I had a half sister. My Mom and Dad’s divorce rocked my world in unimaginable ways.
About the time my father passed, a beautiful wonderful woman came in to my life. I truly mean it when I say that I thought it was ‘Divine Intervention’ that I had hoped and prayed for. My heart was hurting and she helped me to begin the healing process. We shared a lot of the same interests and we also shared a fantastic life together for about two and a half years. We became engaged and certainly I envisioned us riding off into the sunset happily forever after.
Yet it was not meant to be. We never had a negative word between us, no issues that I was even remotely aware of. She said she ‘just needed time’ which made it even tougher for me because there was no real closure to the relationship. My heart was broken.
Suddenly all of the negative emotions from the past three years came crashing down on me. My repressed emotions from my Dad and his other family and how it affected my mother and I. His passing with still many unresolved emotions and words that needed to be spoken. The engagement to whom I thought to be the ‘love of my life’ suddenly and inexplicably vaporizing. A business partnership that had suddenly turned sour.
I pass no judgement on any of what has happened. I love my Dad deeply. I only have sought to forgive and be forgiven by all I have written about in this blog. There is no right or wrong. I am not assigning blame to anyone. Still, all of these issues really began to weigh heavily on my soul, my mental and physical health.
Everything really started to unravel completely just at the onset of the holiday season of 2019. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year’s was pretty much spent alone. Thank God for the inner circle of friends that I have because they were certainly a saving grace. My partner Tony Smith and his wife Nancy were there for me at every turn. I was fortunate enough to spend time and talk to my friends, but still at the end of the day I was home alone. For the first time in my life, I had no family and no girlfriend to look forward to spending the holidays with. I decided to decorate a Christmas tree, struggling to keep a positive outlook. The only gift under the tree was a gag gift toilet plunger that somehow seemed strangely appropriate.
I have never had issues with depression or anxiety and quite frankly really couldn’t understand why people had problems dealing with it. “Why couldn’t they just feel better? What’s the big deal?,” I asked? Saying I got a hard fast indoctrination is an understatement.
Sleep became very fleeting. All I could think about were negative thoughts, and why me?? If I could sleep, I’d wake up suddenly, feeling like someone was standing on my chest. I couldn’t breathe, my chest was heaving, but felt like I was getting no oxygen. A Doctor friend told me I was experiencing full blown panic attacks. I honestly felt like I was coming off the rails. A sense of helplessness washed over me. Nowhere to turn. Nobody to talk to at 3am.
I had read studies about CBD being helpful as relief for anxiety and depression, helping to stabilize moods and feelings of helplessness. When I started to feel any of these feelings, I would take a 1ml dose of our 1500mg CBD. I want you to know from the bottom of my heart, it truly helped me. I literally started to feel a change in my thoughts and attitudes within 15-20 minutes. It helped me sleep and definitely leveled out my mood swings. I felt more at peace. I make no claims about the medical efficacy of CBD. It worked for me but you might not get the same benefits. All I want you to know is that it helped me in a big way when I needed it the most.
Everything I’ve written has been very intimate details of my life that I have chosen to share. If we at Hemptonicx can open a dialogue about using CBD for relief from anxiety and depression that might benefit other people who are suffering, we are all about it. I have been there and it literally shook me to the core. Thankfully, as time has passed I have been able to address and deal with my feelings again and I feel good with no lingering issues. Please know, I am not trying to sell you anything. This is my personal story, take it for what it is and if you can benefit from my words by all means do so! Thank you for reading!
Thank you for sharing about your anxiety attacks. For anyone who has never experienced those, there is no understanding of that exact feeling. But when you do experience a panic attack, you never forget it. If you’re really lucky, you’ll only experience once. I wasn’t so lucky in my experience with them. I wound up taking Xanax, and walking around like a zombie for quite a while. So for me, CBD is something natural that I could use and function, instead of the anti-anxiety medications that leave you feeling like you’ve checked out of your life for the day.
Hi Angela: Thank you for your comment. I never truly experienced how overwhelming anxiety, depression and panic attacks can be. In my wildest dreams, I never thought I would have to deal with such issues. I was humbled in a big way. Glad you feel the same way I do. Using an all natural CBD solution that helps your body heal itself seems to be the logical choice as opposed to the drugs our doctors are so eager to prescribe. Thanks for sharing your personal insight!
Greg Daughtry